My Initial Feelings Are Not of Forgiveness

My initial feelings are not of forgiveness

A radical forgiveness is a complete letting go of the past, in any personal relationship, as well as in any collective drama (Marianne Williamson, Return to Love, 1996: 70).

My feelings after Karl’s death are perplexing and confusing.

They are not primarily about forgiveness.

I experience strong feelings of anger and abandonment. Why was Karl speeding on that wet, slippery, winding rural road? He knew it was a treacherous stretch of road. And why had he driven off that cliff and killed himself? Read more