Denial FOLLOWED BY a shock…

At first, following Karl’s death, I am not pessimistic about my harsh new reality because I do not believe what is happening to me. The shock is somewhat softened by finding that I can communicate directly with Karl. I begin writing to him on March 7, 2016, a month after his death, noting in my journal:

I am struggling with the excruciating pain of losing you. I wake up and pray that it’s only a bad dream. Read more